[Disclaimer: This is, unfortunately, not going to be an interesting piece nor a life-changing source of inspiration...so if that's what you're looking for, please feel free to click the "Next Blog" button at the top or scurry away to do your other more important stuff! Still, thanks for stopping by!]
It's been 3 years and 319 days since my last post (apologies to those who have actually been following!). And, of course, as I always do when coming back from a long hiatus, I re-read all of my past posts...
Funny how I would do this every time. And it is even more surreal as I read through my old posts, that they felt familiar and yet alien to me. It's like reading someone else' blog. I couldn't believe that I actually had the courage back then to have written half of the stuff here.
Seriously, this blog is like skeletons in the closet...dark secrets that I've long forgotten re-surfaced as I skimmed through the pages...I can't remember how many times I cringed when reading through it. Despite all the cringe-worthy moments (I know, I know, why am I still here babbling even more personal stuff here?!), I find myself filled with nostalgia and a twinge of sadness.
Regardless of all the unbelievable things I've written (and wished I hadn't), this is still ultimately me who had written this...the part of me which I've forgotten or buried too deep away from myself. That I used to have aspirations, dreams and tried to work towards them but now these passions which used to be so important to me, has become something I sacrificed in exchange for the more generally accepted ambitions. True, age and experience has change my mindset a bit; I now saw a different side to things and have learn to embrace and enjoy them rather than stubbornly shunned them.
Still, it is sad that I have side-stepped stuff I used to love, especially when I still love doing them. Frankly, I blame myself to have lost that old me. Hence this comeback.
Whilst unfortunately I cannot promise that I can turn back to the old me, and as usual I'm not a very disciplined person (ha! guess people don't change that much after all), I'm still hoping to keep this blog to document my life journey and growth.
To those who had actually read this whole post, thank you and good luck. Let us rediscover that person we used to be. Cheers to our old self!